Takeheart (46) from Essex

Hello i am Mike ,

I am forever asking myself questions about who i am and still discovering who i am .
I work basically as a cook for some 8 or up to 10 elderly residents , bit like a warden , which i have been doing for the last 7 years , since i divorced more or less
I am originally born in Canada but brought up in Liverpool , so i do have a 'scouse ' accent and i currently reside in Romford for the last 10 years approx and lived in Essex since 1992


Solitude
on my own
Emptiness
In my home

Tranquil
Quietly i'm fine
Silent
noise part-time

Peaceful
no one heard
voices
no spoken word

Serenity
Feeling alone
unidentified
I'm unknown

Mike Jones 01-10-10 14:52

Done it all

Resisting
tempted to
wanted
needed to
itching to make the call

too much from me
making you respond
fingers pointing
tongue tied
i done it all

head hurts
heart aches
feel weird today
twisted words fall

take a breathe
relax and calm
wait for a answer
big or small

hands under seat
keep them down
and keep em still
do nothing at all

turn off my mind
don't think of anything
to remind me
of my loving fall

go away
hide and do not seek
count to a million
build a wall

if wanted a talk
needed a love
a hug
she knows i would
be here to
Give it all


12:32 02-10-10 Mike Jones

I am here for friendship , but i wouldn't rule out dating

I attend meets when it's possible ,I have been to a few and met many Mse Members and there are of course members i know who i have yet to meet .
I like to chat , so feel free to message me

Who am i ?

A hollow shell
All void ,emptiness
Losing my inner being
Scrambled in a mess

A bottomless well
With no penny to drop
A put on me spell
A closed shop

Discover me ,
Discover things in life
Because i just exist
101 things to do before i die
Like a bucket list


Recover some missed youth
And my dreams forgotten
No 18-30 clubs and drinking
Did really nothing

Under-achiever
Masked by playing the fool
My education lost
When i was at school

Bit of a loner
With nowhere to go
Bullied ,felt alone
And no bruises to show


Found i feel i was not giving
But wanting to take
Looking to work work work
My biggest mistake


A washed up tide
With no ebb and flow
Living off past glories
But there was never any to show

A frozen bullet
Suspended in time
In midst of air
The aim,target
Long gone from there



I didn't know what i wanted
I know it wasn't right
I put up my fists at the world
But i didn't have a fight


Processed many tears
And hid all my fears
Of the world i live in
But that all stops now
Takeheart is going to start and begin


Just cause i write these words
Doesn't indicate
I know what they mean
Like waking up and not knowing
The meaning of your dream

M Jones 19/09/10 13:05