bodhisattva    (33) from Lothian 

For now I call myself Bodhisattva, because this is my mission.
I am 33 years old and have moved to Edinburgh last spring.
I am actually from Germany [to be precice: the former GDR], but in spring 1997 I moved to Japan and came to the UK about 4 years ago.

During my course of Japan studies I found the inspiration to follow my heart-felt wish to familiarize myself with religions and their influence on social structures as well as on education at schools.

So, For the last 11 years I've been studying and practicing Japanese as well as Tibetan Buddhism.
Tuff times in my childhood made me look for something from within that I could never get from people...
Also, the fact that my homecountry disappeared over night and was made to become one with another made me question the value and reliability on governments and political systems...
After having spent 7 years in Tokyo I came to Scotland, to live in a tibetan community near Lockerbie. I still consider that place to be my home and refuge. It was nice to have an "easy shock" back into the west.

but some time ago I came to the painful conclusion that studying and adapting ideas from other cultures requires healthy roots in ones own native background. Otherwise one stagnates somewhere mentally and psychologically too. I felt the strong urge to leave the community, inorder to transform my experiences of the far-eastern cultures into my own. I loved the "kind of nun' s life", but it is too difficult to keep it up out here in the normal world. Life here seams to be based on a level of morality and ethics that I cannot comprehend.
I think that there are quite a few people out there who feel the way I do.....
I am training in Shiatsu and Counselling, a long and challenging road...
Let's see if my practice in patience and loving-kindness works in my service for people.

I cannot describe myself, but a friend of mine told me once that I always remind her of a quiet, colorful tropical bird.

Rather than spending time infront of the TV and in pubs I enjoy deep conversations, nice walks and being envolved in my community.
I would love to have a few good friends.
I am very affectionate and too easily trusting. Having said that though; I am not naive and can be verry sharp when my boundries are pushed.

I love huggs and everything that is cozy.
I though am protective of my space.
I consider my space and my being to be sacred, and I fought a long and bitter fight to preserve my dignity. So entering my world can be a challenging task, I think.
Well if you think about it, everybody is sacred! It is just a question of noticing it for oneself as well as for others.

I dream of having a nice home. One of those homes that wellcomes people who need a warm place to rest.
When I was little I always lived in boarding school. One of the most painful things for me was to see other children being picked up by their parents on saturdays. My parents never came. The place became more and more empty and...
When my parents finally came.. I was "the one too many". I always told myself that, friendships that I take up should result in being a big vesel for love to express itself, and to overflow! Nothing is worse than only being involved in one-self. That is like a little pond. It will soon dry out or the water rotts.

Well, and here I am!
I am quite a serious and responsible person, but be warned! I can take the micki out of everything! I am a mad poet and love debating. I have to admit that I love having the last word. I can say sorry though wen I found my mistake.


Here are two of my poems:

As a rose

could you hold me
without fearing my thorns?

could you share my fragrance
with the rest of the world?

could you carry my love
as a present
from God?



Mystery

If a flower were wanting
to hide it's face,
which direction
would it turn?

And if a flower
had a reason to blush,
how would this
appear to our eyes?

Water is innocent,
it has no secrets
to conceal.


There is one thing about me that I have to admit, just to be fair.
I am blind. Well, if this does not scare you away..
But I am able to do almost anything like any normal person.
I think that this handicap made me who I am. And I would not change it. I think that this way of suffering makes me even more grateful for any little nice thing in life.




 

Hush

Whose hands can I trust

like a bird

that knows it's nest?

Whose words

are save to hear

like the earth

that grounds my feet?

Into whose heart

can I melt

like a thought

that returns home

to mind?



 

bodhisattva is 33 years old and lives in Lothian. She is single with no children. She's 5' 4" tall and of average build. She's a smoker, who never drinks. She is looking for dating and romance, friendship, hobbies and activities.

Level: 7 Trusted member: yes! Joined on: 21-Jun-2007 Last logged in on: 17-Jul-2008 Last updated profile: 07-Mar-2008   Conversations with bodhisattva

Block

Hear bodhisattva for yourself

There's no better way to really get to know someone than to hear their voice. bodhisattva has recorded a voice profile especially for you. Ring right now to hear it in full.

To listen ring:	0905 168 5477
Use this identity number:	172397

Calls cost 50p per minute, and the average call duration is 3 minutes. Can't get through on your mobile? Click here for help.

shaun007	Orson	Angel2007	longhaired buddhist	Kevin1708
Bonjollocks	lonelycanadian	hopster28